A year ago I spent the evening on my couch participating in an online class. We took a short break for dinner and I grabbed a salad that Phillip had made earlier. I love salads and remember feeling really full after a few bites. I couldn’t think of a time ever that I couldn’t finish my salad. I even thought, “I hope I’m not getting sick.” Then it hit me like a ton of bricks. Continue reading
This year is different. Today, October 15, there is an ache in my heart as I remember our sweet angel babies. A tiny bit of the sting has been taken away though. Last Thursday, October 6, Phillip and I welcomed Brooklyn Elizabeth into the world. She has filled every moment since with absolute joy. Continue reading
For the past 4 years, December has been the hardest month of the year. My heart aches and I go numb. I remember what we lost 4 years ago, and then 3 years ago, and then a year ago. It can even be unconscious. I feel empty sometimes before I even realize why.
And then there is this…
At the end of the day, I go home to three adorable, sweet, and loving pugs. Their tails wag and they can’t contain their excitement every time I walk through the door (yeah, yeah, they do it for everyone, I know). This past semester was exhausting with school, work, and travel. I didn’t get nearly enough pug time, so I’m making up for it now. Exams ended a week ago and my winter break at work is about to begin, which means I’m going to get as much pug love as I can for the next few weeks!
Christmas is quickly approaching and pug cuddles are all Phillip and I need Santa to bring this year.
A year ago today my heart broke into pieces. Continue reading